…eventually it ends.

I am in the 10th month of my dissertation journey and I am no longer looking at the mountain of work looming in front of me. I am on the other side of the mountain, sliding, skidding, legs flailing… as I try to put on the metaphorical brakes. The pace feels too fast…as I wonder “what is wrong with me?” My goal to finish this dissertation is just around the corner… and yet. I am at a point where I am questioning my pace.

After reflecting and digging into this feeling of “going too fast” I realized what it was… I am worried about the END of the dissertation journey.

This dissertation has challenged me intellectually, emotionally, and even physically… and all of this is too fantastic to let go of! I guess it gave me everything I expected and more, it fulfilled my need for intellectual stimulation, offered a feeling of pure accomplishment, and opened the door for me to make an original contribution to the scholarly world. Don’t get me wrong, it has never been easy, but I have enjoyed those magical paradoxes:

challenges and deep struggles

with

fulfillment and creative freedom

The Journey

I am working on keeping the process moving forward while balancing time for reflection and space to enjoy the final moments of my very own dissertation journey.

What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” T.S. Eliot                                                                 

Enjoy your journey,

Tami France